Yeah, I know. I was shocked and a little pissy, too. Because we were JUST told that no, no it's not cancer. Just some ovaries in my cysts and uterus in my tumors. Yeppers, that is exactly how the Dr. explained it to me; that I was just full up on things that shouldn't be there but because my family doesn't have a history of gynecological cancers (now, everything else, stomach, brain, liver, breast: affirmative) he didn't take seriously the results of the initial CA 125 test that was done (and understand, that test is not definitive proof by itself; I trust you will Google this and educate yourselves because you seem to be fairly self motivating), he didn't give the outrageous result of that test the weight that it should have been given based not on family history but actual, you know, symptoms such as: constant, chronic pelvic pain (like I was ovulating all day, everyday only instead of eggs I was dropping boulders wrapped in sand paper coated with spikes: YEAH), sorry boys, avert your eyes for un momento but I was bleeding non-stop for WEEKS at a time. Yes. Weeks. And it was bright, shiny, 'fresh' 'new' blood not what we ladies typically associate with menstruation (I couldn't hate that word more if it came to my house and kicked my dog, honestly) and the deal sealer which almost nobody would associate with ovarian cancer was the pain in my thighs and lower back/buttock area. See, when we first got here in September I attributed the pain to having been strapped into a too full car for 3000 miles and then directly after that I bought a pair of shoes for that wedding that had just a bit (like 3 inch) heel which is approximately 3 inches more than I am accustomed to (THAT'S WHAT SHE SAID) wearing so I thought okay: Lots of driving, lots of dancing in new shoes, that is why my thighs literally cramp so hard it brings tears to my eyes just walking to the mailbox. But that pain combined with the pelvic agony and bloodletting surely meant there was something amiss but I sure did not want this to be the answer.
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