Miscarriage of justice, indeed
So. Warning: Talk of body fluids, periods and other such sexiness to follow.
Since my period first re-appeared after having Jackson, it's been a horrible blood-letting each month. Think hemorrhage, is what I'm saying. I mistakenly thought it was getting better when I had what I believed to be a super-light period earlier this month.
I was wrong. I'm in the process of miscarrying as I type this and to be honest, I'm not even sad. Angry, confused and more than slightly perplexed at how I managed to avoid pregnancy for most of 32 years and yet this makes twice in a year and a half, but not sad, just yet.
I have a Dr's appointment tomorrow to make it all official like but based on the amount of blood, tissue and the positive pregnancy test, I think I know what to expect to hear.
Without being too cynical, I can at least be relieved this took away making an awfully weighted choice off our shoulders.
D is getting snipped next week, in case you're wondering.
*hugs* What rotten news. I am so sorry.
Posted by: Ivy | May 29, 2007 at 09:04 PM
Ugh, I am so sorry. What a horrible thing to have happen to you. Both of you. Just what you need. I don't have any good words for you. At all. But I am thinking of you, so maybe that's something. Fuck.
Posted by: Erika, Plain Jane Mom | May 29, 2007 at 09:57 PM
I love you babe, lots of hugs. I'll talk with you soon.
Posted by: StickyKeys | May 29, 2007 at 10:04 PM
Oh Shannon. I just don't know what to say. I'm sorry.
Posted by: problem girl | May 29, 2007 at 10:55 PM
I am sorry for all you guys are going through.
Posted by: jodi | May 30, 2007 at 06:08 AM
I am so sorry.
Posted by: jennifer | May 30, 2007 at 07:06 AM
dude. oy. too much, too much.
i wish i could bring you a hot cup of tea, preferably well-spiked with liquor, and just sit with you. which, given that you don't know me, would be kinda funny.
but this isn't...and i'm sorry, just for all the mess.
Posted by: Bon | May 30, 2007 at 07:55 AM
That sucks. :( I'm sorry. I don't have the words for that, but it sucks monkey balls.
If your periods are psychotic, ask your ob/gyn about an Endometrial Ablation-as mine said, they "bake" your uterus-many women end up with no period, most with a drastically lighter one (here here!) and few with no change.
Since more children is out of the question, there shouldn't be a lot of argument. My periods were to the point where I was lightheaded and woozy for a week. It sucked.
Posted by: thordora | May 30, 2007 at 08:12 AM
I'm sorry. There are so many emotions, I remember all too well.
Posted by: Jennifer | May 30, 2007 at 08:31 AM
If I wasn't half a country away, we'd sit on the porch and drink ourselves into a stupor. There would be tears, laughter, hugs, more tears, and possibly howling at the moon. All completely necessary. Fuck, girl, I don't know what to say.
I had a hysterectomy (uterus & cervix only, everything else was working fine)...second favorite surgery I've ever had. The first was the boob job, of course.
Posted by: DangerDoll | May 30, 2007 at 08:47 AM
Oh, honey.
I'm so, so sorry.
This is not fair, not at all.
Posted by: Stephanie | May 30, 2007 at 09:30 AM
Sending lots of hugs your way. Please tell me you will ask your ob/gyn about doing something to ease your periods. There's no reason to put up with that if you don't have to.
More hugs.
Posted by: Sophie Treadmill | May 30, 2007 at 10:07 AM
I wish I knew what I could say that would be comforting. You're in my thoughts, for sure.
Posted by: shyestviolet | May 30, 2007 at 10:51 AM
Complete been there done that. I understand being glad you don't have to make that decision.
The Niagra Falls of periods?!! UGH!!! Three months it took to go away. Ridiculous!
Posted by: MammaLoves | May 30, 2007 at 11:02 AM
Sorry for the trauma...the snip will be good. At least it was for us. And post snip ain't to bad either!;)
Posted by: Kellyology | May 30, 2007 at 11:16 AM
My heart goes out to you Shan.
Sucky sucktitude. I wish I had something to offer. But my charm and wit and withering good looks will have to suffice for the moment. If you need someone to come and worship at the altar of yours and Deels beauty, let me know.
I have knee pads. I'll use them for ya.
xox
Posted by: Redneck Mommy | May 30, 2007 at 11:24 AM
Oh, no. I am so sorry.
Posted by: Carmen | May 30, 2007 at 02:54 PM
Nothing original to say but sorry.
Posted by: Andi | May 30, 2007 at 03:16 PM
Hugs Shannon.
I am so sorry.
Posted by: woodstove | May 30, 2007 at 08:56 PM
I'm really sorry...really. I found you through one of my pals...what floats my boat. GREAT BLOG.
My heart goes out to you, it really does. I've got to link in to you...because I'm an old fart..and its the only way I'll remember how to come back here.
By the way, I love the title of your blog.............REALLY........I KNEW I HAD TO LOVE YOU THE MINUTE I READ THAT.........
Posted by: Ev Nucci | June 01, 2007 at 06:39 AM
I just stumbled upon your blog and am thouroghly enjoying it. I am so sorry for the loss of your home, baby and now....miscarriage. My heart goes out to you. Take care!
Angie
Posted by: Angela Z | June 04, 2007 at 03:48 PM
We're all here.
Posted by: fringes | June 05, 2007 at 10:17 AM